friday night enlightenment
last night
i think
i defiled my religion
and my government
about 100 different ways
each
i rode the bus alone
i had sex with a stranger,
i think i did
for like 10 seconds
i got lost
lost my friends
got locked out of the dorm
i walked the campus alone
i drank myself stupid
apparently
because i did all of the above
and what is it worth?
why do i do it?
i really can’t answer either of those questions,
Maybe
I do it
because that’s who i am
i’m a nymphomaniac
when intoxicated
i’m a party animal
i like attention
i’m caught in the sinful ways of the world
God is extremely disappointed in me
and the devil is patting me on the back
the devil is on earth
i’m sure of it
people who get caught up in money
alcohol
sex
and gambling
seem to have a better life.
hah
on earth that is
now, after that, i’m not to sure.
and i’m not too sure if there is even an “after that”
so maybe,
that’s the way to go,
or maybe,
i should just walk aimlessly
as i have before
and see where i go,
we all end up the same place anyway,
dead.
